special sembreak bonding times.:)

-lunch at countryside steak house with ian after my enrollment. ukay-ukay after. hehe.
-'career mode' badminton game with mama. (i must say, napagod niya 'ko..hehe.) great game ma!;p

**phone pics.

Calix Gabriel's Christening.

Oct. 16, 2010.
@ Molino, Cavite.

We became instant godmothers and godfathers to our sister's/Ken's very own bundle of joy. It's a radical but definitely momentous event for most of us, since it's our first time to have an inaanak with a ka-barkada as his parent. we sure are growing up.:D

'Til next christening..sino kaya next?;p

We love you Calix! -ninongs and ninangs
[All of these pictures are nakaw pics from Jek Calingan's picasa. haha.]

Ian's 22nd birthday.

October 18, 2010.
@ McDo MOA while waiting for tita carol and Ian's place.
simple, intimate celebration..just the way he like it.<3

**photos at Ian's place taken by kuya Clark.:)

our 23rd monthsary

by cor commander's request also.;p

October 16, 2010
morning til noon: @ my place in Cavite
midday: molino (attended Calix' Christening)
evening: Starbucks Tagaytay

<3

catharsis.

A Better Resurrection

BY CHRISTINA ROSSETTI

I have no wit, no words, no tears;

         My heart within me like a stone

Is numb'd too much for hopes or fears;

         Look right, look left, I dwell alone;

I lift mine eyes, but dimm'd with grief

         No everlasting hills I see;

My life is in the falling leaf:

         O Jesus, quicken me.

My life is like a faded leaf,

         My harvest dwindled to a husk:

Truly my life is void and brief

         And tedious in the barren dusk;

My life is like a frozen thing,

         No bud nor greenness can I see:

Yet rise it shall—the sap of Spring;

         O Jesus, rise in me.

My life is like a broken bowl,

         A broken bowl that cannot hold

One drop of water for my soul

         Or cordial in the searching cold;

Cast in the fire the perish'd thing;

         Melt and remould it, till it be

A royal cup for Him, my King:

         O Jesus, drink of me.

April, 

forgive thyself.

get some sleep.

cheaters losers.

I saw it. Again..and I can't even imagine how and why they do it.

A group of my classmates cheated in our pathology quiz awhile ago, and it disturbed me. Today's revelation was actually the third incident where I saw my classmates cheat during a quiz. Yes, a quiz. Pathetic, isn't it? And it's disturbing because in those three incidents, the people involved were not the same. 

I, myself is not that good. Yes, I do fail my quizzes ( a lot of times pa nga ) but that's okay..'cos for me, that's what I deserve. So tama lang to fail because I didn't study hard enough. I just try harder to make up for those failures with our major exams. But them. They whispered answers to each other while having the quiz and as if they weren't contented with that, they even opened their notes! Grabe. How I wished our proctor heard/saw them. Cheating is somewhat reasonable in elementary, for values formation is just progressing at that point but in post grad studies? I can't believe that these people are actually taking medicine.

Yes. I know that in our situation, every point counts but I also believe that every point should be worked hard for. If they can cheat in small things, what more with bigger things diba? 

Even if they managed to pass our course, with what they're doing, I doubt if they'll pass the boards. Maybe I'm just disappointed with them that's why I'm getting cocky here. I know these people, and they surprised me. I don't want to label them but I can't forget what they did either. As medical students, I think it's just fitting that we, while in our training as doctors be honest with ourselves and get true with our capacities right now.

Doctors handle lives, and we can't save lives through kodigos. 

Realize that, I HOPE for them.

I'm sorry.

At some part of our seemingly perfect, joyful lives we'll come to a point that all things suddenly change and the things, persons whom we hold on to dearly become foreign, instant strangers. It is the point where the dreams and desires we previously hope for vanishes, leaving no trail but of sad memories. Suddenly, we have to make decisions out of urgency, from the mind and not the heart. But this is not about rational thinking. It was a decision I had to make having weighed out the pros and cons of the matter for the sake of survival. I don't want to keep on suffering anymore. I can't keep holding on to something I am not so sure now, if had ever existed. "I'll try to reflect and see if we can still work it out or if we'll just keep on hurting each other.." was the only statement I could say after hours of painful argument. He failed me. His contradicting explanations didn't help at all.  

Last night, I crossed a line that I know well. I have crossed a same line before, and after stepping into it there's no turning back..I didn't turn back. Trust, once broken, can never be put again. It was a point of no return, as the song says..and I know it would never be the same. 

I'm sorry.
Sorry that it didn't turn out as expected,
Sorry that it will never be as expected.

I've already decided. So help me God.